- never knew a thing about it
or felt any kind of subtle ache, or nuance
never saw a coloured sky or felt
the cloying weight of a warm summer
never met anyone quite like -
the hum of crickets that fills an empty night
sleeping
under a cold moon, and
a blanket of darkness
with a throat full of cotton
wool and useless words
never had the courage
never reached a hand into the galaxy
to feel the icy stillness of space
or the warmth of the stars,
so like -
never said i, never said love, never said you
it must be human nature;
the reason the Bible
and countless shelves of self-help books
warn us away
from sex and hallucinogenic
drugs and
Nietzscheist philosophy -
to keep us from realising how alone we are.
and that we've been abandoned
by the divine creator,
by the universe,
by the shrinks we pay $100 an hour
to feign empathy,
and they all
want to keep us
in the dark;
pseudo-spiritually emaciated
like the seekers of false enlightenment,
starved
of the forbidden fruit.
we
are walking miles
without water
waiting at bus stops
left in the dust
panting in the heat
like a dog
and the air is thick with smoke
and exhaustion
on this old earth
the soil
is red with memory
but holds no water
dropping like flies
in the summer
we're waiting
for our last days
and the flat plains
of the desert
do not allow
for an echo
or the resonating cry
of mothers made
to bury their children
in the orange sand.
and i -
a living specimen
neither man nor woman
an anomaly
preserved
in a glass case
and a constant state of nervousness
stepping
on eggshells hidden
in my cotton wool,
surgically sterilized environment
my own personal hell -
a cage,
with newsprint pillows
the stars in my night sky
light the anxious eyes
of onlookers
two tickets,
three,
four,
five
i am a sideshow attraction
bound into a recognisable shape
and almost close enough to feel real
(almost)
call a doctor -
i am lonely,
and left
to my own devices
with surgical precision
(there is going to be an accident)
i am judas on my days off;
i only break
my own promises
a replacement
a second chance
second best
i will never hurt you
the way he did
(i have my own methods)
i would sooner set myself
on fire
a beacon
but not an idol
to throw the world
into harsh light
i am a martyr
a sacrifice to a godless universe
a leader
of silent crowds
born again, the disciple
of no faith
i will appeal
to the black masses -
not a guiding light, but ghost fire
over an endless stretch
of sand
and water
mud, mud,
i am blacke
here i am again
ill, reduced
to a statistic -
the textbook-example figure
of a living host for disease
and much less, in reality
a swilling bucket
of pills
and concoctions
my stomach, a black hole
or a whirlpool
each spot, each speck of dust
each tiny insect
absorbed into my skin
(the itch
is indescribable)
the fever
transforms me into a fireplace,
or a boiling pot
emitting
noxious steam
my teeth grind
to hills
of white dust
a heaving chest, and a heart
a dancing mess
my hair sticks to my forehead
like a tree taking root
and i am less than dirt,
and certainly fit for this
- never knew a thing about it
or felt any kind of subtle ache, or nuance
never saw a coloured sky or felt
the cloying weight of a warm summer
never met anyone quite like -
the hum of crickets that fills an empty night
sleeping
under a cold moon, and
a blanket of darkness
with a throat full of cotton
wool and useless words
never had the courage
never reached a hand into the galaxy
to feel the icy stillness of space
or the warmth of the stars,
so like -
never said i, never said love, never said you
it must be human nature;
the reason the Bible
and countless shelves of self-help books
warn us away
from sex and hallucinogenic
drugs and
Nietzscheist philosophy -
to keep us from realising how alone we are.
and that we've been abandoned
by the divine creator,
by the universe,
by the shrinks we pay $100 an hour
to feign empathy,
and they all
want to keep us
in the dark;
pseudo-spiritually emaciated
like the seekers of false enlightenment,
starved
of the forbidden fruit.
we
are walking miles
without water
waiting at bus stops
left in the dust
panting in the heat
like a dog
and the air is thick with smoke
and exhaustion
on this old earth
the soil
is red with memory
but holds no water
dropping like flies
in the summer
we're waiting
for our last days
and the flat plains
of the desert
do not allow
for an echo
or the resonating cry
of mothers made
to bury their children
in the orange sand.
and i -
a living specimen
neither man nor woman
an anomaly
preserved
in a glass case
and a constant state of nervousness
stepping
on eggshells hidden
in my cotton wool,
surgically sterilized environment
my own personal hell -
a cage,
with newsprint pillows
the stars in my night sky
light the anxious eyes
of onlookers
two tickets,
three,
four,
five
i am a sideshow attraction
bound into a recognisable shape
and almost close enough to feel real
(almost)
call a doctor -
i am lonely,
and left
to my own devices
with surgical precision
(there is going to be an accident)
i am judas on my days off;
i only break
my own promises
a replacement
a second chance
second best
i will never hurt you
the way he did
(i have my own methods)
i would sooner set myself
on fire
a beacon
but not an idol
to throw the world
into harsh light
i am a martyr
a sacrifice to a godless universe
a leader
of silent crowds
born again, the disciple
of no faith
i will appeal
to the black masses -
not a guiding light, but ghost fire
over an endless stretch
of sand
and water
mud, mud,
i am blacke
here i am again
ill, reduced
to a statistic -
the textbook-example figure
of a living host for disease
and much less, in reality
a swilling bucket
of pills
and concoctions
my stomach, a black hole
or a whirlpool
each spot, each speck of dust
each tiny insect
absorbed into my skin
(the itch
is indescribable)
the fever
transforms me into a fireplace,
or a boiling pot
emitting
noxious steam
my teeth grind
to hills
of white dust
a heaving chest, and a heart
a dancing mess
my hair sticks to my forehead
like a tree taking root
and i am less than dirt,
and certainly fit for this
The sky is still
crying, darling.
weeping,
weeping.
And despite --
[despite there being no
'despite'
about it], Schatz.
Just,
waiting --
the
seventy-one-thousand-eight-hundred-and-eighty
minutes
still haven't quite
passed.
So, mon chéri
the heavens [not literally, dear-
as if such divine things as gods
deserve such
privelege, for want
of a better term
term]
are grieving; shedding
tears; choking on
sorrow,
and continuing,
darling, for close enough to
six-thousand-five-hundred-and-twenty-two
minutes.
Which, I think you'll agree,
is far too long, indeed,
to cry.
[But of course, it will
all clear
up.
For
Past lives and a liars kiss. by AbsentNature, literature
Literature
Past lives and a liars kiss.
Speak of past lives,
of the fires and revolts and loves long lost.
The people of the soot and of the ash.
Bustle skirts flicking street corners.
Cities singing with industry and
Can you hear?
Echoing across the river the sound of metal on metal.
On metal. On metal.
You can only just see the light, 20 feet above your eyes.
Smoke is slipping through your broken fingers.
The powdered wigs are crying
and green glasses smiling.
Madame is waiting.
The women drop their stitches.
And Sanson drops blade.
The red flower nothing but a myth.
They cheer.
The blitz is here and the underground is collapsing.
Filling the sanctuary we hid
The days are blurring and
the nights are fading and
the stars are standing still.
My mind is filled with lowering
water marks and
calico bed sheets and
the memory of russet hair.
Hands clasp my
waist and a
chin
is on my shoulder and
I'm wondering (every day)
if this is just another
mistake.
The textured concrete is digging into my hands and
the swings of my childhood are
creaking but
right now
my mind is occupied and the door is
firmly jammed shut.
But somehow a friendly smile
and a clasping hand
allay my fears and
the encroaching darkness doesn't matter;
not when I'm
with you.
Firstly, a list of things that I hate with the passion of a thousand Francises:
- Homestuck
- Glee
- The Biggest Loser
- Having to consume foods close to their use-by date due to floods and shit
- Having to touch, smell and be in the same house as foods close to their use-by date
- The passion of a thousand Francises
- Francises
- The fact that my deodorant is broken and I can't be bothered to buy a new one and hence I smell like a German
- The stress of finding a male name for use in "extreme situations"
- My habit of always hitting the Windows Media Centre button with my elbow, causing it to open and make me scream because I alway